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Wish You Were Here

Two days until this!

colorI’m so excited! I may not be able to run the whole thing but I’m going to give it my best. I have been sore for months now. I have been so tired and dropping exhausted into bed every night. I hurt both knees and thought it was going to stop me. But it didn’t. I healed, and I am healthier now than I was four months ago. As of todayI have lost a total of 40 pounds from where I was one year ago this same time. I have gone through a couple of very hard losses: a best friend and my dad. I have wanted to quit. I have wanted to give up entirely because it was so hard, but I didn’t. I kept going. I tried to stay as motivated as possible. I kept positive thoughts running through my life and in the forefront of my mind.

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I am no one special. I am not famous, and I’ve done nothing spectacular. I’m just an ordinary woman who was tired of being tired, tired of being sad, tired of being afraid of taking chances. I didn’t do any fad dieting or strict exercise program. I used my common sense and went back to basics with a balanced diet and doing the training to prepare. That’s it. This run is such a small thing, but for me it’s the culmination of a lot of hard work, determination, and a change in mentality. I am not the same woman I was four months ago. I can’t explain it all. I cannot see all of the changes and how I’ve adjusted to them, but the people who love me have seen a huge difference in my life. My kids, my friends, and my family have all seen a new confidence, a new attitude, but they see the woman they always knew I’ve been and could become. I know my friends are proud of me and my family as well. My kids? Eh, what do you expect. They just know mom’s a bit crazier than usual, and driving them up a wall with all this positive thinking and running and writing talk. They’ll look back when they are older and understand. But they’ll have a different perspective because they’ll be able to understand what I actually went through to get here. And they’ll be there Saturday to watch mom laugh like a loon and look as crazy. But they will have as much fun as I will. And THIS is what I want to teach them: that they can accomplish whatever they set their minds to do. It will require a lot of hard work, a lot of determination, and they will have some setbacks. But, in the end, if they can find the force of will to persevere, it will be entirely worth it. They will come out the other side a changed person, and sometimes, it just might be fun. I want to be their inspiration for accomplishing their goals in life. Β And I want to shout from the rooftops “Look what I did!”

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This is where I’ll be come 8 a.m. Saturday morning. Wish Β me fun, not luck. I don’t need luck. I’ve got me. Don’t you wish you could be there? **big smiles**

 

xo Jess

 

Jesi Kay, poet and aspiring novelist, was born in the Texas panhandle where wide skies, lazy summer days, and rolling thunderstorms sparked her imagination and left lasting memories in her blood. An early reader, poetry and mythology were her passions. So much so that when she was ten years old her step-father gave her his college mythology textbooks to read, which were full of classic poetry and more than enough tales to fill her romantic and inquisitive nature. Jesi loves reading, art, going to the theater, the romanticism of the Victorian era (but not the missing conveniences of indoor plumbing and central air conditioning), running when the heat and humidity cooperate, and cold weather so she can wear her favorite boots and knitwear. Also, she still has those college mythology textbooks, a little worse for wear over time but still intact and telling their stories to her. Jesi is a contributor at The Well Tempered Bards blog and at www.octpowrimo.com.

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