The Jekyll & Hyde Effect: What Do You Really See?

Jesi Kay

Jesi Kay, poet and aspiring novelist, was born in the Texas panhandle where wide skies, lazy summer days, and rolling thunderstorms sparked her imagination and left lasting memories in her blood. An early reader, poetry and mythology were her passions. So much so that when she was ten years old her step-father gave her his college mythology textbooks to read, which were full of classic poetry and more than enough tales to fill her romantic and inquisitive nature. Jesi loves reading, art, going to the theater, the romanticism of the Victorian era (but not the missing conveniences of indoor plumbing and central air conditioning), running when the heat and humidity cooperate, and cold weather so she can wear her favorite boots and knitwear. Also, she still has those college mythology textbooks, a little worse for wear over time but still intact and telling their stories to her. Jesi is a contributor at The Well Tempered Bards blog and at

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21 Responses

  1. lrconsiderer says:

    Brave lady. Both of you.

    Jekyll is who I won’t allow out online. Not in photo format, anyway. She writes often though. Hyde I will show (ironically) until I can’t stand even her, because she’s still so lacking in ‘-er’s

    You and Hasty have my ENORMOUS respect today. I am in awe of your bravery.

    • Jessica says:

      It wasn’t brave. I can’t stop thinking about your post, or Hasty’s. I think it would help if more people would talk about this in the open. And so, I’m just following in some very courageous footsteps.

      • lrconsiderer says:

        Ah mine wasn’t courageous. I said that already – it was a rod for my own back, intentionally built. And it backfired because nobody hit me with it.

        Hasty’s was IMMENSELY brave though.

        And like I’ve said to her in the past – people won’t remember what you look like or what clothes you wear; they’ll remember how you behaved, how you treated others, and how you made them feel.

        You make me feel very warmly towards you πŸ™‚

        • Jessica says:

          Awww….I kinda like you, too. And I wasn’t brave. Hasty was BRAVE. Indeed. And of course nobody would hit you with your own rod. Carry it for you, I’d throw it away personally, but never hit you with it. Now, drive me crazy and I might throw a pillow at you…;-)

          • lrconsiderer says:

            Heheheh I rarely drive people crazy. Except Husby. And every so often we just stand, lock eyes, and scream at each other, then dissolve into giggles.

            And no…I was amazed and surprised and very humbled by the reaction to that post πŸ™‚

            Glad you kinda like me too πŸ™‚

  2. hastywords says:

    I am in literal tears. Streaming down my face because this kind of honesty makes me so very happy to see. I think it is our first step in getting the two persona’s to meet and form some sort of complete image in our minds. One we can eventually love no matter how many wrinkles appear.

    Yesterday was hard… but today I feel honest… and honest feels good.

    I am so very glad you wrote this.

    I had to write mine in a rush because I know I would try to make it prettier if I took my time but you took your time and it is brilliant!


    • Jessica says:

      Hasty, this comment means so much to me.
      I didn’t try to take my time. I didn’t actually think too much about what I would say because like you said, I was afraid I would pretty it up and be less honest. But I did put some thought into what pics I would put in. In fact, the last two pics in the blog are of me today. This is how I usually go through the day. I also go out in public like that. I hate it but I just don’t have the energy to try and be Ms. Hyde every day.
      And it was your post that prompted this one Lizzi’s has had me thinking about it, but yours pushed it over the edge. It makes me sad that we feel this way about ourselves. I don’t have a daughter but I’ve thought about how I would want her to see herself. Since I don’t have one and I do have four boys, chances are good I’ll have a granddaughter. I want to be the best example of a healthy, whole, brilliant, beautiful woman to them. This is how I begin. With one eye on the future of women and one foot solidly kicking myself in the butt today. I am working every day on merging my two halves and the fact that I am seeing Hyde a little more often gives me hope. But it’s really all about acceptance and self-love and teaching that to our girls…and our sons. Because our boys grow into men who have a HUGE impact on how a woman sees herself.

  3. Amber says:

    I don’t see Jekyll. I don’t see Hyde. Want to know what I see?! I see you – Jessica. Nothing less, nothing different, just the best you, each and every time.

  4. The Jekyll and Mr Hyde effect doesn’t only come in the form of weight, within myself it has come in my personality and emotional state of mind.

    i still struggle with the reaction, which accrue from those around me.

    Most times on a good day i just let it go, however being as hot headed as myself there are those moments where i just blow-up like a time-bomb, yet i say to myself this too shall pass, possibly in god’s grace the near future…

    This coming from child trapped in a man’s body, whom has no belief there is to be a god!

    • Jessica says:

      Yes, it is NOT just about weight…I have a temper, too and I always criticize myself just as harshly for my mental and emotional failures.
      But I keep trying and I think I am better now than I used to be…it just takes time, effort, and continuing to fight the monsters in our heads even when we feel like giving up.

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