• NaNoWriMo

    The Words Were In My Favor But…

    It’s Day 4 so how about a very quick NaNo update? I got started a day late and as of yesterday morning I was still a day behind. But lots of words can happen in a day, and they did. Not only did I get caught up, I went over by a third of what I need to write today! I know, right?!?! And hopefully things will continue to go well this week so I don’t get behind again. *knock on wood* Once I get my words written for today I plan on going back and reworking a few of my character sketches. Yesterday was a great day not only…

  • Poetry

    Got Your Passport Ready?

    Underneath By Jesi Scott   Take my hand and don’t let go, no matter what you see; I need you here with me underneath.   I don’t want to hide anymore, put a mask on my face- I need you to see the scarlet that stains these depths, forgive me this, help me to forget.   Strip away my flesh, look down to the bone; I’ll not apologise for any part, though there’s tears in my eyes, this is the truth of the lies: Hell is empty and all the devils are here.   Though I’m already burning in my sin, You are here within under my skin And in…

  • Poetry

    Her Dark Friend

    For my girl, interrupted (you know who you are) That Way Lies Madness By Jesi Scott   She cuts to bleed the pain out Because it hurts too much to keep in her flesh-covered prison- Some souls were never meant to bear such weight; her mind betrays and kidnaps her emotions, holds them hostage to its irrational musings (you’re horrible, no one likes you really, you’re a piece of shit, a fraud, you bring disaster to everyone you meet, no one would like you if they really knew you)   And the voices of reason, hope, and love Are hard to hear over the seductive words the terrorist whispers to…

  • Poetry

    The Fairy Tale Without A Happy Ending

    Mirror Mirror By Jessica Scott     I waited for you, but there was no reply, Now here I am, alone on this road, I missed my cue, and you’re saying goodbye. The play is over, the curtain has closed. Mirror, mirror on the wall, You never heard me when I’d call.   The bruises that will never disappear, The misery that tries to find relief, I’m trying so hard to find the meaning here- Lost my faith, gone my belief. This fragile frame that holds can break The heart inside that bears the ache.   Now you’ve left me alone to walk in the dark; The flood is coming,…

  • Poetry

    Broken Things

    Broken By Jessica Scott     There comes a time when you’ve taken all you can take, and given all you can give. Where is that breaking point, the last straw under which the camel collapsed? How many beatings does it take before you throw up the white flag?   I thought I was so strong. I thought I could handle anything, Then you came along and I learned just how weak one person can make another feel… I learned how to stop myself from saying the words that would make things worse but should have been said, regardless of your retaliative actions. And now, hindsight being what it is,…

  • Blog,  Encouragement

    Reblogged From For Love Of…

    From my friend Amber’s blog:   We are just right… There seems to be a theme going on lately. I am not sure what is going on, but it is maddening! First it started with a conversation with my mom that broke my heart. Then yesterday, I came across three blog posts by three different beautiful women and it had me pissed off. It’s not a secret in life that most of us are not 100% happy with ourselves. If given a free pass to change anything about our bodies, I am sure each of us could without a blink of an eye come up with several different things we would…

  • Encouragement,  Journal,  Life,  Motivation,  Random,  Running,  Thoughts,  Uncategorized

    Oh, the Agony!

    Today I am struggling with my inner voice. You know the one. It’s that one that keeps getting on your case because you aren’t doing much. It’s nagging at you that you’re wasting time and not doing anything. I hate that one. But, today I really have no choice. Well, actually, it’s been since Thursday. I’ve made a rookie mistake, and now I’m very thankful for the foresight I had when planning on getting back into running. My mistake is that I listened to some bad advice instead of trusting my own instincts and I failed to stretch properly before I started running a few weeks ago. I now have…

  • Encouragement,  Journal,  Life,  Motivation,  Random,  Running,  Thoughts,  Uncategorized

    Keep Going

    I learned a very important lesson yesterday. I cannot go two days in a row without running, unless there’s a very good reason why I can’t. Yesterday I ran after a two day break because of the weather. It sucked so hard. I felt weighted down and like I had less energy to make it through. Although, I did do a full 35 minutes of interval training.  Today was a little easier but for some reason my right calf felt like it seized up and my left ankle decided to protest 3/4 of the way through the run. I kept going but I only did 30 minutes today. Things are…