My Darling Friend,
I was reading a blog post today and something in it brought you so clearly to mind that I felt an overwhelming sense of urgency to connect with you. It’s been much too long a while since I’ve seen you or heard your voice so I thought I’d send you a little note to let you know I’m thinking about you. Maybe you think I’ve forgotten about you but I could never do something so hurtful. I think about you every day; I am just not always able to sit down and let you know it. Life is so busy lately, what with the kids and everything that’s been going on, that I am exhausted by the end of the day and my only wish is for a few hours of decent sleep so I’m not a caffeine zombie the next day.
Wouldn’t it be nice if we could just sit down at the table and have a cup of tea and just chat without interruption for as long as it took to get everything talked about? You always bring new insight into any situation and you inspire me with your words and optimism. I always feel dull and boring though, and so unoriginal. But I make you laugh, and for some reason you stay and are still my friend, despite my faults and imperfections. You aren’t afraid of my dark side and you stand beside me and help me fight my demons. And that’s why I love you.
Lately, however, I’ve noticed that you seem to be fighting demons of your own, alone. You so rarely speak of your own problems and are so often cheerful that I think sometimes people forget you have your own dark side battles. But I’ve noticed. Your voice has been absent from the social sphere. Your lovely face and smile are missing in photos. You are quiet lately, much too quiet, and you’ve withdrawn your Self from everything around you. You haven’t asked for help or let anyone know that you are drowning.
And that makes me sad. I love to hear you making jokes and trying to encourage and inspire your friends and people you don’t know. Your smile brings a ray of sunshine on even the darkest day and helps lighten a burden someone is carrying, though I’m sure you’re never aware of it. I so wish you could know how much you mean to people, how much you are loved and thought of by everyone. How I wish you could believe it.
So, here I am by your side, armor on, shield and sword at the ready, to guard your back and fight for you. Because you deserve to know you aren’t alone, that you are amazing, and that you are loved, and you are worth that love. You are worth fighting for.
And I will stand here in front of this mirror, Dear One, and tell you that every day for the rest of your glorious life.