In my second attempt at playing catch-up with the October Poetry Challenge I am re-posting a poem I wrote in 2015 because it was written as a “letter” for someone. And that’s what Day 7’s prompt was: unsent letters. If you were to write a letter to someone who would it be for and what would it be about. My poem was for a “what-if”. My reason for posting it is that I only found out about a year ago that my “what if” could have been a sure thing if not for the interference of someone close to me who, knowing how I felt, deliberately kept me from the truth of the matter and thereby changing the course of my life and the other person’s. This one thing could have changed my life in an astounding way and I’m still trying to figure out how to accept the knowledge of the interference.
The conclusion I have arrived at currently is that it doesn’t change anything except that now I know the truth of why a certain person acted towards me the way they did, and it makes so much more sense now. Also, I know now that this person did hold me in a certain regard and that the last note I was given meant as much to them as it did to me. Bittersweet memories that I still treasure to this day.
Enjoy the poem, and please leave a comment if you like it.
By Jesi Scott
words to say left unspoken,
the should-have-been becomes
with hair of jet
and those blue-sky eyes,
that sun-bright smile and hearth-fire voice,
you who hung the moon in her sky
and saw through her self-inflicted invisibility,
do you ever ask “what if”?
Does could-have-been slip through your mind
like a soft caress from her hand?
Does the memory of a girl
with honey hair and storm-cloud eyes,
shy smile and soft, snowfall voice
ever gently embrace you, leaving ghost kisses upon your lips
to fade away with the stars
at the coming of the morning?