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Hang In There Baby!

“When you get into a tight place and everything goes against you

till it seems as though you could not hang on a minute longer,

never give up then, for that is just the place and time

that the tide will turn.”

Harriet Beecher Stowe

 

I’ve been fighting negative feelings today, not from myself, but from others. Well, one person, really. Since I made the decision in December that I’m done with living a life I am unhappy in, I have been trying to encourage and inspire myself. I am trying to keep my focus on my goals, and to change myself from the inside out to become the person I want to become. There is a woman inside who is so much more than she has been in the last 15 years, and she has been screaming loudly that her time is here. She wants to be out and do the things she’s supposed to do. She is incredible and amazing. She is intelligent, kind, generous, selfless, patient, compassionate, loving, gentle, and full of passion. She is talented and fearless, and inspiring. She has so many plans for her future and that of her children. But she keeps getting bogged down by those who don’t like her positivity. The negative statements and feelings I have been getting lately keep me wondering if I am making any progress at all towards becoming this woman I want to be. Most days I have been waking up feeling optimistic but then one negative statement gets made and I move past it. Then another, and I move on. But by the end of the day, I have been trying to ignore so much negativity that I feel as if I am taking two steps forward and one back. I keep putting one foot in front of the other, though, because it’s the only way to move forward. Sometimes, you can’t see your progress for the trees. Tonight, I am lost in the woods. My heart is trying to find its north star but it’s cloudy, and there are many branches and limbs in the way when there is a break in the clouds. How do I find my path?

For now, I’m writing this post and hoping this will encourage someone who reads it and is feeling the same way. If by hearing how I am struggling to find something positive can help someone else, then maybe I’ve done something to help someone, which becomes a positive for me. Maybe I’ll never know if I reached someone but my heart hopes and that is enough. I do have plenty of positive things going on right now and I shouldn’t be feeling discouraged. But sometimes, you just need to hear someone say “you are doing a great job” or “I’m proud of you.” So that’s what I’m saying tonight to anyone who is feeling down or discouraged. You are doing great! You are making progress though you can’t see how far you’ve come yet. I am proud of you for the first step you took to a better life or a better you! Know that there is someone here who does care and hopes you don’t quit. I’m not quitting or giving up. This is when we have to hold on just a little longer. We will have to hold on again because things will start to clear. The moon will come out from behind the clouds that are obscuring it from our view. I will find my north star and keep going. I must if I am to succeed and obtain my goals and dreams. There is a song I love to turn up the volume on when it comes on and I think it fits my post. It’s by The Killers (love The Killers-don’t judge them by their name) and is All These Things That I’ve Done. Go listen to it. Download it and play it when you start feeling doubt or discouragement hit. Dance around the house. Drown out those negative statements and feelings. Even if you don’t like the song find one that inspires or makes you feel good about yourself. Play it loud!

I’m posting the lyrics because I want to and it’s my blog and I love this song.

 

All These Things That I’ve Done

The Killers

When there’s nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
One more son
If you can hold on
If you can hold on, hold on
I want to stand up, I want to let go
You know, you know – no you don’t, you don’t
I want to shine on in the hearts of men
I want a meaning from the back of my broken hand

Another head aches, another heart breaks
I am so much older than I can take
And my affection, well it comes and goes
I need direction to perfection, no no no no

Help me out
Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out

And when there’s nowhere else to run
Is there room for one more son
These changes ain’t changing me
The cold-hearted boy I used to be

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out
You’re gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you’re gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you’re gonna bring yourself down

I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier
I got soul, but I’m not a soldier

Yeah, you know you got to help me out
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the backburner
You know you got to help me out
You’re gonna bring yourself down
You’re gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, oh don’t you put me on the backburner
Yeah, you’re gonna bring yourself down
Yeah, you’re gonna bring yourself down

Over and again, last call for sin
While everyone’s lost, the battle is won
With all these things that I’ve done
All these things that I’ve done
(Time, truth, hearts)
If you can hold on
If you can hold on

Jesi Scott is an aspiring writer of novels, a poet, and blogger. She has guest-blogged over at The Well-Tempered Bards, and has a post featured at For Love Of…. Jesi has two poems published in Memories of Mist, a literary anthology, and one published story in a newsletter. She is currently working on releasing her first poetry collection as well as writing her first novel. When not writing, Jesi can be found getting lost in bookstores, singing and dancing around the house, experiencing culture with friends, and generally having fun with her four sons when they aren’t driving her weeping into her closet, which she calls her Padded Cell. She loves to rescue stray bookmarks, as well as books, and has opened her heart to any and all stories needing a home. Archery is her current favorite thing ever but you might want to stand back a little as she still has a tendency to drop the bow occasionally.

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