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April Challenges Bring May Recovery

There is still a post in the Blogging A to Z Challenge to write, one to genuflect about our progress and how the month went. The final encore before the curtain is drawn for another year.

When I began both April challenges I thought it would end up being a breeze. It was just another writing challenge and it’d be no problem. Oh, hindsight; how you get us every time.

How was I to know the emotional toll writing every day would take? Incorporate life into that and it was more than a roller coaster. April is a hard month to get through for me in the first place. I don’t go into it thinking about how hard it’s going to be. I never do. But somehow, by the end of the month, I’m just happy to have made it through and want to spend May in a spa resort (not that I ever get to-sigh).

So, what have I learned from the challenges? It’s almost too early to know the full impact it’s made. But there are some things that I do know right now.

Firstly, I can sit down and write every day, even if I’m feeling like I’d rather NOT write at all. Secondly, I can write a decent poem in a form I’ve never used before (Sapphics specifically). Thirdly, people are rather wonderful about lifting you up even when, or maybe especially when, you feel that all you’ve written is worthless and awful.

I’ve also learned that my words inspire my friends when I didn’t think I was having any impact at all. Living vicariously through the wires is sometimes an illusion. The relationships you think you are making might not actually exist in life. And yet…if it weren’t for Rod, Lizzi, and Cindy encouraging and supporting so unselfishly, I’m not sure I would have actually finished both challenges. I thought often of cheating and throwing an already written poem up onto the blog, and I did do one (that was a very hard day for me so I think one cheat out of 30 isn’t such an awful thing), but I persevered and finished, hopefully, on a strong note.

Out of everything I wrote this month, I think my own personal favorite is Evanesce. It’s been a while but that was the aubade I had to write. For me, it was almost a plea. It’s how I feel when I’m weary of the world, weary of being bound and shackled in a body. I’m not free to fly away; I’m just a caged bird desperately trying to spread my wings and fly into the sun only to find myself clipped and locked up tight.

If you visited my blog during this last month, what was your favorite poem that I wrote? I would love to hear.

xo Jesi

 

Jesi Kay
Jesi Kay, poet and aspiring novelist, was born in the Texas panhandle where wide skies, lazy summer days, and rolling thunderstorms sparked her imagination and left lasting memories in her blood. An early reader, poetry and mythology were her passions. So much so that when she was ten years old her step-father gave her his college mythology textbooks to read, which were full of classic poetry and more than enough tales to fill her romantic and inquisitive nature. Jesi loves reading, art, going to the theater, the romanticism of the Victorian era (but not the missing conveniences of indoor plumbing and central air conditioning), running when the heat and humidity cooperate, and cold weather so she can wear her favorite boots and knitwear. Also, she still has those college mythology textbooks, a little worse for wear over time but still intact and telling their stories to her. Jesi is a contributor at The Well Tempered Bards blog and at www.octpowrimo.com.

5 Replies to “April Challenges Bring May Recovery

  1. You did really well to get both challenges done. I know from last year that A-Z is too much for me, but I LOVED doing the poetry challenge, even if some nights my entry was after midnight, so technically NOT on the right day, but who’s counting?

    I loved so many of yours but Evanesce was really special 🙂 *sigh* I’m sad it’s over.

    1. Thanks Lizzi. You always got yours in while it was still time over here in the States so that counts.
      And I’m not sure if I’m sad it’s over just yet. But I will miss sharing the day in poetry with you and Rod and Cindy.

  2. I don’t know what else was in April, all I know is AtoZ. I had a blast, but got worn to a frazzle several times. A good twelve hours sleep usually fixes that for me, and I got it last night. It’s always heart warming to make meaningful connections through out blogging.
    ~ We made it!!! ~
    Visit me at: Life & Faith in Caneyhead
    I am Ensign B of Tremps’ Troops
    Don’t forget to snag the Survivor Badge for your sidebar and to add your A to Z Reflections post link at A to Z Challenge! They’ll have the Linky List up on Monday.

    1. The other challenge I was doing is called NaPoWriMo, National Poetry Writing Month, because April is National Poetry Month. I combined the two challenges and it was an emotional ride.
      I will definitely snag the badge and add my link. Thanks for visiting!

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