A to Z Challenge,  Blog,  NaPoWriMo,  Poetry

April Challenges Bring May Recovery

There is still a post in the Blogging A to Z Challenge to write, one to genuflect about our progress and how the month went. The final encore before the curtain is drawn for another year.

When I began both April challenges I thought it would end up being a breeze. It was just another writing challenge and it’d be no problem. Oh, hindsight; how you get us every time.

How was I to know the emotional toll writing every day would take? Incorporate life into that and it was more than a roller coaster. April is a hard month to get through for me in the first place. I don’t go into it thinking about how hard it’s going to be. I never do. But somehow, by the end of the month, I’m just happy to have made it through and want to spend May in a spa resort (not that I ever get to-sigh).

So, what have I learned from the challenges? It’s almost too early to know the full impact it’s made. But there are some things that I do know right now.

Firstly, I can sit down and write every day, even if I’m feeling like I’d rather NOT write at all. Secondly, I can write a decent poem in a form I’ve never used before (Sapphics specifically). Thirdly, people are rather wonderful about lifting you up even when, or maybe especially when, you feel that all you’ve written is worthless and awful.

I’ve also learned that my words inspire my friends when I didn’t think I was having any impact at all. Living vicariously through the wires is sometimes an illusion. The relationships you think you are making might not actually exist in life. And yet…if it weren’t for Rod, Lizzi, and Cindy encouraging and supporting so unselfishly, I’m not sure I would have actually finished both challenges. I thought often of cheating and throwing an already written poem up onto the blog, and I did do one (that was a very hard day for me so I think one cheat out of 30 isn’t such an awful thing), but I persevered and finished, hopefully, on a strong note.

Out of everything I wrote this month, I think my own personal favorite is Evanesce. It’s been a while but that was the aubade I had to write. For me, it was almost a plea. It’s how I feel when I’m weary of the world, weary of being bound and shackled in a body. I’m not free to fly away; I’m just a caged bird desperately trying to spread my wings and fly into the sun only to find myself clipped and locked up tight.

If you visited my blog during this last month, what was your favorite poem that I wrote? I would love to hear.

xo Jesi

 

Jesi Scott is an aspiring writer of novels, a poet, and blogger. She has guest-blogged over at The Well-Tempered Bards, and has a post featured at For Love Of…. Jesi has two poems published in Memories of Mist, a literary anthology, and one published story in a newsletter. She is currently working on releasing her first poetry collection as well as writing her first novel. When not writing, Jesi can be found getting lost in bookstores, singing and dancing around the house, experiencing culture with friends, and generally having fun with her four sons when they aren’t driving her weeping into her closet, which she calls her Padded Cell. She loves to rescue stray bookmarks, as well as books, and has opened her heart to any and all stories needing a home. Archery is her current favorite thing ever but you might want to stand back a little as she still has a tendency to drop the bow occasionally.

5 Comments

  • lrconsiderer

    You did really well to get both challenges done. I know from last year that A-Z is too much for me, but I LOVED doing the poetry challenge, even if some nights my entry was after midnight, so technically NOT on the right day, but who’s counting?

    I loved so many of yours but Evanesce was really special πŸ™‚ *sigh* I’m sad it’s over.

    • Jesi

      Thanks Lizzi. You always got yours in while it was still time over here in the States so that counts.
      And I’m not sure if I’m sad it’s over just yet. But I will miss sharing the day in poetry with you and Rod and Cindy.

  • Barbara In Caneyhead

    I don’t know what else was in April, all I know is AtoZ. I had a blast, but got worn to a frazzle several times. A good twelve hours sleep usually fixes that for me, and I got it last night. It’s always heart warming to make meaningful connections through out blogging.
    ~ We made it!!! ~
    Visit me at: Life & Faith in Caneyhead
    I am Ensign B of Tremps’ Troops
    Don’t forget to snag the Survivor Badge for your sidebar and to add your A to Z Reflections post link at A to Z Challenge! They’ll have the Linky List up on Monday.

    • Jesi

      The other challenge I was doing is called NaPoWriMo, National Poetry Writing Month, because April is National Poetry Month. I combined the two challenges and it was an emotional ride.
      I will definitely snag the badge and add my link. Thanks for visiting!

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